Those of us who are soulful, deeply sensitive beings often encounter periods where we experience a morning, or maybe several mornings, which turn into days (or weeks), during which we seem to wake up with a sense of hopelessness. It can happen for a variety of reasons—perhaps we’ve recently lost something or someone important to us, or perhaps something is not moving at the pace we desire. Deep down, hopelessness often stems from a primary, deeper driver: something in our lives feels unclear or uncertain.
When we are clear on where we are going—the when of it, the how of it, the what of it, the why of it, the who of it—we often have a sense of sharp optimism that slices through any outside disturbances. And yet, when the occasions of life arise where we are on the precipice of a change or transformation when these things become less clear, that sharp optimism and ability to plow through outside energetics becomes increasingly difficult, to the point in which our full steam ahead can turn into feelings of headed nowhere in no direction.
For intuitive, intelligent souls, we are often tuning into the energetics not only of ourselves but also of our loved ones and the world. And when one of those elements feels uncertain, or worse, more than one, our sense of despair can deepen to the point we struggle to access our baseline feeling of divinity no matter what gratitude list, meditation, or prayer we engage in.
And it makes sense, because often sensitive souls come from backgrounds or environments where uncertainty felt unsafe. As deeply intuitive children tuning into a world around us, we had no say in it. We had to watch from the outside how our guardians handled uncertainty and were forced to hold space for and transmute the energy created by their decisions. Later in life, these energetic imprints often caused us to create our own experiences where uncertainty led to unsafe feelings or situations. These energetic patterns imprinted a fear that uncertainty = not safe. And yet, we are alive, here together on this blog, reading these words today. So we made it. If it resonates, I’d like to impress upon you a new pattern:
Uncertainty = Deeply powerful and positive change
Having been through this stage several times myself, the best thing I have learned through my experiences is that even though we may not be able to trust our present situation (the cumulation of feelings and events that have led us to this hopelessness), we can, moment by moment, work on accepting it. The agonizing over if this will pass, when this will pass, and how this pass only adds friction to our experience. Uncertainty is not dooming; it’s a doorway. These times in our lives are indicators of us passing through one energetic period to another, a request we often made and decided upon on a soul level. We ride the waves of uncertainty, heads tilted towards the sun and laughing at the sky rather than clinging to our life raft in tears. The destination remains the same - but it’s our experience of the journey that changes. This simple release of friction moment by moment will immediately cause the doorway to our coming experience to open a little more, a little more, a little more until we finally look around and realize we’ve entered another world - a new, beautiful, impossibly wonderful world.
With a profound appreciation for your existence. I’m here with you.
Cassandra